I hung a bunch of photographs in my house today. They look good, and I've added a much more personal touch to the artwork that is hanging. My tape for Max is damn good. I've been listening to it obsessively. I hope his is too. I want to see him, but we're both pretty busy lately. This weekend is going to be nuts for me, with graduation. I don't know.

I'm dreaming a lot about plans for summer. I really am going to Portland next week. I will most likely go towards the end of the week, because I need time to recover from graduation festivities and I want to try and see a few people before I go. I'm almost definitely going to drive. I realized it would be a huge hassle to not be able to get around once I get there. I also want to do a zine this summer. I want to do it in Portland. I want to shoot some film on my trip too. I really want to buy a medium format camera. A Hasselblaad. But unless my parents decide to drop some serious cash on graduation, I'm never going to get one. But at any rate, I need to do something productive. The darkroom is calling. I haven't been in a few weeks, and I'm feeling lazy and sloppy and like I need to get moving.

I wrote some haikus today while sitting in a bar after lunch waiting for class to get out. Here's one:

Always hating me

Forever loving myself

Can I have the two?

OR ALTERNATELY, I'VE CHANGED THE LAST LINE OF PREVIOUS HAIKU:

Always hating me

Forever loving myself

Mediocrity!

Wow. That sucked. I promise to never do that again, unless I actually come up with something good. I don't really even know what the correct form for a haiku is, but I think that that may be close. I got the 5-7-5 thing down anyway. Oh well. It's summer so I'm going to go try and hunt down boys and eat them. Well, maybe not eat. But I will be on the prowl. I can't decide if the best way to get over my last failed attempt is to not try at all, or to go out and try and meet someone new. I'm such a failure at this. I wish I'd get over him quickly, but I'm not capable.