just saw the hottest picture of dex. want to cum right now. want him to call me and cum with me. Life looked up for a minute today, and down again, and up again with this polaroid i just found, but down because i want to take more polaroids, and i dunno if i will get to again. i miss him that way. i want that. just casual cool, but emotional too. god i want to be in his bed right now and fuck my brains out and then feel good and marvel at how lucky i am to have such a hot friend who occasionally wants me and wants to model for me nude while i shoot with my hasselblad and then snap polaroids as we get it on. god i'm a freak. oh well. it's not like he'll chekc his messages or call me back, and if he does, i pray he's in the mood for some fun.