i am talking with a kid i want to know. i want to know him so well. and i feel like i already do, and that scares me. because it means i know me. and i don't want to know me. i'm scared of me.

i went to class today. i didnt' mention it to anyone. it's my birthday today. i'm not a teenager anymore. can i still fuck teenagers? i can. and i will. and that's scary.

i am frightened.i love you. i love myself more.

dexter makes me feel. that's why i like him. i don't feel much anymore. pharmaceuticals help me feel, but not like this. this is real.

i can't be bothered with capital letters right now.