My father wants me to do an anestaeshiaed detox. I don't want to because all these programs are for drug addicts that are street users, I'm not a junkie. I don't want to go to aftercare for a year afterwards. I just want to get off the fentanyl. Off the morphine. I will continue to take narcotics, diluadid in particular, to manage my pain, but I need to get off the constant narcotic use that I previously needed. And these programs aren't designed for that. But I need to talk to some of these people in charge to see what the best solution is. 'Cause right now, I'm addicted to morphine and I can't seem to get off it. I'm down to a very low dose, but I don't know how to handle it. FUCK.

I don't want to talk about this anymore.

Dexter really wants a dog. I do too, I think, but I'm scared of the responsibility that it entails.

I need to get off. Right now. Ejaculation is essential right now. Write later.